smile :)

Today the date is now 7 of august 2009. and i promise i wont let this life hate me i have to love everything as they r firstly myself. as i have never learnt to love me. let ppl do watever they want to. i wl grow no one can stop[ me from........................

hiiiiiiiiiiiii
i really dont know what has happened to me i need to cry, need to scream loud, run as fast as possible and leave everything behind. really dont wana live in the surrounding i am in. feeling as if i am stuck into it with both my leags and cant move after i do all the effort. y is it like this y cant i just move on, y everyone around me is imp to me. i dont need anyone and i need everyone. y i am not myself i mean y i cant b myself, is iy necessary that i have to b someone else to be loved. dont i love them as they are. but no i have to i have to just come out of it. i just have to flush out everything. just flush it out bcoz dont who cant accept have no right to hurt me. i need toto no i have to fight it bcoz this feeling is eating me since years and now i wont let it eat me i am not that weak i have to nb strong no stronger. i dont have to cry and sit like a moron but have to stand strong and fight against. i just cant tolerate it any more cant accept the things as they r. they have to favour me i will make them favour me. i just dont need someone to cry with need my both hands joined and wl start loving. anyhow i have to start loving myself first. i cant hate myself.
i love yself sooooo much
how can i let someone make me cry
i have to smile and move on

How m i feeling

Apoorva is tired, sad, confused, excited, happy, extremely happy and probably had one of the best day of my life today, thanks to all who were a part of it :)